Bad, down, blah

Well that sums up my mood today. I'm trying to move but it's so frustrating right now - half my stuff at the apt, half at the townhouse. Plus, I think it's hitting me that C. is gone. I feel unconnected with everyone. And I've got a damn crush on the UPS man. How stupid is that? I feel like I'm giving off desperate vibes too. He's probably gay. Or a girlfriend. Or just not interested.

I feel utterly unattractive. I really need to start working out again. I probably will living out in the 'burbs and I know I'll be in a better mood. But finding the motivation - that's the hard spot. All I want to do is smoke & spend money I don't have. And my power might be off today, who knows.

Okay no more of this. Here's hoping for a better mood next time.