Going Crazy

It would figure that it rained my entire vacation. I went back to work this week & it was lovely & sunny...and now on my weekend it's crappy out again.

So I'm back in my local free wifi cafe (so-so coffee, good food), waiting for some Deadwood to finish downloading and trying to desperatly not to think about smoking. Yes yes, I said I was quiting back in March but uh, I didn't do so hot. Now I really am going to do it this time but it's so difficult, I feel like I'm jumping out of my skin all of the time, and I'm a real pain in the ass most of the time - part of me wants to go out with friends, but when I go out - such as last Saturday went to a soccer game - great fun, I end up drinking way way way too much & just automatically smoking. And I really don't want to smoke anymore for all the reason I shouldn't. But it's really hard to change a long term habit.

I got my KnitPicks order yesterday - yah! I ended up casting on for the Leaf Edged Bolero instead of Green Gable first. It's going to be purty. But hey, I might go crazy & CO for the Green Gable too. And the sock yarn...wow. It's all I can do not to start another pair of socks. One of the Dancing ones - probably Swing - is going to be for a friend of mine. So if I CO for that, it won't count, right?

Right.

I swear my knitting ADD is worse now not smoking, I can't concentrate on anything. Although, that was the advice my friend who quit gave me - when I want a cig, just start doing something else. (Though he does not knit. That would be highly amusing though.)